get over my crushing fear and anxiety and become the person i really am instead of the inoffensive shell of a person everyone including my family has come to know; even if who i am is a weirdo who likes making things that normal people would hold crosses to and question whether i should be in an institution or not
>>12 I think this discussion has been had a million times, but what will the natives like a gaijin as a friend? They might be more open to gaijins now(I don't like it but I do wish you well)
>>13 I don't know, I think it's fine as long as they speak English or you speak Japanese. That's not the reason I'm going, though. I included it because it would be a shame not to make any friends during my year there.
my new years resolution is the same as last - keep learning Japanese progress has been slow, but there has been clear improvement, and I don't see it stopping it might even get faster since I'm not banging my head against everything anymore